There is something that I need to get off my chest, and its huge! Most of my closest friends probably know this about me, but they probably don't understand it very well...
So, my huge confession is that I am a highly sensitive person. I am introverted, deep, and emotional! I worry a lot and often over-analyze everything. I keep to myself most of the time, and when I am out and about, I am overwhelmed by large crowds, chaos, and tons of noise. I won't act crazy...ever, and even as a child, I was never one to have gobs of energy! Oh, and probably the hardest thing for me, is that I am easily hurt. When I was younger, I would cry too much...it was awful!
I have hated this part of myself for most of my life, until recently. I have really started to appreciate the beauty of my sensitivity. I can feel a depth of emotion that most people probably can't fathom, and I can have a massive burden for things because God has placed something on my heart! For instance, right now, I have a burden for orphans and the hurting. I am not sure how to act on it, but it has been festering in my heart for a few years now!
It has been difficult growing up this way. It still is tough, because when I am hurt, I am not completely sure how to let it go. God is teaching me, slowly, to give over my hurts to Him. He is also teaching me the intense beauty that I possess (something that I have always struggled with is my sense of self-worth).
I want to teach the world about people like me...that way maybe we can be fully appreciated for who we are. Like a delicate flower, hidden in a garden, truly beautiful but often overlooked.
There will be more to come, as I can get my thoughts written out. So, stick with me, and maybe you will understand me a bit better!
Friday, August 26, 2011
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
How I am Surviving this Summer...
The temps here in OKC have been awful. We have had over 40 straight days of weather in the 100's! It's been a long, hot summer already, with more to come...
To top it all off, I am sporting a pregnant belly and chasing after a 19-month-old! She's a really good baby, but still, she's a toddler who likes to get into stuff!
So, here is how I am surviving the hottest summer I have ever experienced:
*I go out only in the mornings, when it is cooler.
*Fans! We bought an oscillating fan for our living room, and it really helps when the house only cools down to 80!
*Lots of liquids. Drinking lots of water helps (I also drink soda too...oops).
*Shorts and dresses only. There is no way you are going to find me wearing jeans...
So, now, tell me. How are you staying cool?
To top it all off, I am sporting a pregnant belly and chasing after a 19-month-old! She's a really good baby, but still, she's a toddler who likes to get into stuff!
So, here is how I am surviving the hottest summer I have ever experienced:
*I go out only in the mornings, when it is cooler.
*Fans! We bought an oscillating fan for our living room, and it really helps when the house only cools down to 80!
*Lots of liquids. Drinking lots of water helps (I also drink soda too...oops).
*Shorts and dresses only. There is no way you are going to find me wearing jeans...
So, now, tell me. How are you staying cool?
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Snowmageddon 2011
So, at the end of January, OKC had one of the worst snow storms in years. It was awful, in that it shut down the city for almost a week! It snowed on Monday night, and I don't even remember how much we got, but it was bad. The worst part about the storm is that in Oklahoma, they do not clear off the roads...at all! The state has hardly any snow plows, so the best hope to get out is to pray for the snow to melt and to drive in the tracks of other drivers who paved the way before you.
Mike became sick that week, so I had to care for a sickling and run to the store a couple days after the snowstorm to get him some soup and crackers. It was a small adventure!
Why mention the snowstorm several months after it happened? Well, since it has been a while since I posted anything, I thought I would say the one ironic result! The night the storm hit, I jokingly mentioned on facebook how many snowstorm babies there were going to be, and that we might have one of them. About a week later, I started feeling sick and wondering if I was pregnant. The next day, I took a pregnancy test and behold, it was positive! At the 8-week ultrasound, this baby measured exactly as though it were conceived during that very snowstorm! So, the irony is that while we weren't trying or anything, but this little one is a snowstorm baby indeed! Maybe we should give her a snowy name! Ha! Yeah right!
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Mike became sick that week, so I had to care for a sickling and run to the store a couple days after the snowstorm to get him some soup and crackers. It was a small adventure!
Why mention the snowstorm several months after it happened? Well, since it has been a while since I posted anything, I thought I would say the one ironic result! The night the storm hit, I jokingly mentioned on facebook how many snowstorm babies there were going to be, and that we might have one of them. About a week later, I started feeling sick and wondering if I was pregnant. The next day, I took a pregnancy test and behold, it was positive! At the 8-week ultrasound, this baby measured exactly as though it were conceived during that very snowstorm! So, the irony is that while we weren't trying or anything, but this little one is a snowstorm baby indeed! Maybe we should give her a snowy name! Ha! Yeah right!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Its Been a While...
Well, its now the later half of June, and it has been four months since I have posted anything! Time definitely flies! My baby girl is now 18 months. She's walking, trying to figure things out, dancing, running away from mommy, and being insanely cute! She carries her lovey, Pinkie, everywhere, and in the pic below, she put the shoe on by herself! I'm impressed, as its amazing to see her growing and learning everyday!
As for me, I am currently 22 weeks pregnant with my second baby GIRL! Her nickname is currently Daleberta (after my dear dad...it was his idea), and she is due October 24th. We currently have a name picked out (for now), but we're not saying what it is just yet.
We are so thrilled to have two girls in less than two years apart. I seriously wonder what this baby will look like and what her personality will be. I'm just trying to remember that she will be completely different from her big sister.
I can't be more thrilled!
As for me, I am currently 22 weeks pregnant with my second baby GIRL! Her nickname is currently Daleberta (after my dear dad...it was his idea), and she is due October 24th. We currently have a name picked out (for now), but we're not saying what it is just yet.
We are so thrilled to have two girls in less than two years apart. I seriously wonder what this baby will look like and what her personality will be. I'm just trying to remember that she will be completely different from her big sister.
I can't be more thrilled!
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Serving...its Hard Work!
Right now as I type this blog entry, I am siting in a language lab while my little girl plays on the floor with her blocks. It takes a twenty minute drive to get down here and I have to pack what feels like the entire house so that I can take good care of Lily while here. Once I get to the language lab, I can sigh a huge sigh of relief since I made it! Hopefully, Lily will cooperate and play well, or else it makes the two hour block very tiring!
My story of how I got here is a good one:
It all began when I heard about an organization called The Spero Project. They have four different divisions, and one of them is working with the International Refugee Community here in OKC. Some people from our church did a local mission day last April, and we did some various projects around the apartment complex where this community lives. Basically, I had a friend watch Lily and I helped to paint the laundry room. When they were discussing what the Spero Project does, something in my heart stirred. "This is what I want to do!" I told myself.
A couple of months later, I found myself mentoring this family that had just moved here, attempting to teach them English. The mentorship was difficul,t but rewarding, but that family has now since moved to another area of Oklahoma. Now, I work in the language lab and help the kiddos with their homework. I volunteer down here on Monday and Tuesday afternoons for a couple hours. Yesterday afternoon was amazing, and I am only looking forward to what happens today!
Serving is so tough! I have to figure out ways to make it easier on Lily so that I can serve here, and when she is fussy, it drains me emotionally! There is no bathroom in the lab, so I have to ask one of the kind ladies who live here if I can use the restroom in their apartment (this is a bit ackward). There are so many things about this volunteer job that make it difficult... but I am building relationships with some of the refugees that live here and am just so blessed!
I could stay at home all day and watch The Doctors or Oprah, or I could come down here! I choose to come down here and serve...even in this small capacity!
My story of how I got here is a good one:
It all began when I heard about an organization called The Spero Project. They have four different divisions, and one of them is working with the International Refugee Community here in OKC. Some people from our church did a local mission day last April, and we did some various projects around the apartment complex where this community lives. Basically, I had a friend watch Lily and I helped to paint the laundry room. When they were discussing what the Spero Project does, something in my heart stirred. "This is what I want to do!" I told myself.
A couple of months later, I found myself mentoring this family that had just moved here, attempting to teach them English. The mentorship was difficul,t but rewarding, but that family has now since moved to another area of Oklahoma. Now, I work in the language lab and help the kiddos with their homework. I volunteer down here on Monday and Tuesday afternoons for a couple hours. Yesterday afternoon was amazing, and I am only looking forward to what happens today!
Serving is so tough! I have to figure out ways to make it easier on Lily so that I can serve here, and when she is fussy, it drains me emotionally! There is no bathroom in the lab, so I have to ask one of the kind ladies who live here if I can use the restroom in their apartment (this is a bit ackward). There are so many things about this volunteer job that make it difficult... but I am building relationships with some of the refugees that live here and am just so blessed!
I could stay at home all day and watch The Doctors or Oprah, or I could come down here! I choose to come down here and serve...even in this small capacity!
Sunday, November 21, 2010
My Fanny is Smaller!
My fanny went from being parked in a size 16 to a now size 8! Its tight, but I can make it!
I'm not done. I'm still going on my weight loss journey. The best part is that I am smaller than I have been in years! I'm now down about 30 pounds since I started in late March. I'm now around 158, whereas I was around 160 when I got married and the smallest I have been is 164 since then. The smallest clothing-wise that I have been is about a size 12.
It feels great to have all that weight off. Its also hard to realize that I have taken so much off! I was 188-9 when I started, which includes baby weight and all. Now, I'm just trying to lose some of the belly fat, because I still have a ton! Even after thirty lbs of fat, I still have plenty to spare.
How have I done it? Weight watchers! I am breastfeeding, so that helps a little, but not as much as you might think. Its about eating less and exercising more. Eating much, much less (although I still eat plenty of sugar - just a smaller amount). And I feel amazing! I hope to post some recipes to help others along their journey.
Now, I have discovered myfitnesspal.com, and it is so cool! I am hoping that it is a really useful tool, as well! I would like to ditch Weight Watchers and start using this website.
The most important thing for myself to remember is that weight loss is a marathon, not a spring. It will take a long time, but that is the way to keep the weight off!
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I'm not done. I'm still going on my weight loss journey. The best part is that I am smaller than I have been in years! I'm now down about 30 pounds since I started in late March. I'm now around 158, whereas I was around 160 when I got married and the smallest I have been is 164 since then. The smallest clothing-wise that I have been is about a size 12.
It feels great to have all that weight off. Its also hard to realize that I have taken so much off! I was 188-9 when I started, which includes baby weight and all. Now, I'm just trying to lose some of the belly fat, because I still have a ton! Even after thirty lbs of fat, I still have plenty to spare.
How have I done it? Weight watchers! I am breastfeeding, so that helps a little, but not as much as you might think. Its about eating less and exercising more. Eating much, much less (although I still eat plenty of sugar - just a smaller amount). And I feel amazing! I hope to post some recipes to help others along their journey.
Now, I have discovered myfitnesspal.com, and it is so cool! I am hoping that it is a really useful tool, as well! I would like to ditch Weight Watchers and start using this website.
The most important thing for myself to remember is that weight loss is a marathon, not a spring. It will take a long time, but that is the way to keep the weight off!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Why I Value my Husband
I'm pretty angry right now. Its because there are people in this world who actually dare to talk rudely to my husband. They are people who are close, or at least think they are close, yet they think that they have the right to actually talk rudely to him. They pretty much treat him like crap. And I don't understand why.
My husband never says a harsh word to anyone and never does anything to hurt someone intentionally. There are times when, yes, he has hurt my feelings, but he is human. If I talk to him rationally, he will do whatever it takes to make it right. He hates to see someone hurt. Especially because of what he has done. And he hardly ever hurts me, the person closest to him.
As a father, he is amazing! He is awesome with Lily. Just the best daddy that I could ask for, for my daughter.
Michael is kind and generous. He is shy, but when you get to know him, he will surprise you at how much he can open up. He is hilarious and even goofy - at least to Lily, myself, and his mom - the people who know his best. Mike is insanely smart. Furthermore, he does get angry, but he rarely acts upon it. Mike is controlled and driven. He is passionate. He is loving and absolutely devoted to those he loves. Michael is faithful to God. Lastly, he is very hot! But I can only say that since he is my man!
I know from personal experience how much of a treasure he is, and it upsets me greatly when people treat him badly. I just want to scream, "Don't you know what you've got here? Why do you treat him this way? He has done nothing to deserve this!"
And even more so, it makes me appreciate and love my husband even more. I know what I have, and I want to respect him even greater because he is such an amazing person.
So, Mike, I value you greatly! I love you so much, and I hope you realize how much you mean to me and Lily. Where would we be without you? Lost! You are amazing, and I thank you for being such a great Christ follower, husband, daddy, lover, engineer, and so many other things!
My husband never says a harsh word to anyone and never does anything to hurt someone intentionally. There are times when, yes, he has hurt my feelings, but he is human. If I talk to him rationally, he will do whatever it takes to make it right. He hates to see someone hurt. Especially because of what he has done. And he hardly ever hurts me, the person closest to him.
As a father, he is amazing! He is awesome with Lily. Just the best daddy that I could ask for, for my daughter.
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Michael is kind and generous. He is shy, but when you get to know him, he will surprise you at how much he can open up. He is hilarious and even goofy - at least to Lily, myself, and his mom - the people who know his best. Mike is insanely smart. Furthermore, he does get angry, but he rarely acts upon it. Mike is controlled and driven. He is passionate. He is loving and absolutely devoted to those he loves. Michael is faithful to God. Lastly, he is very hot! But I can only say that since he is my man!
I know from personal experience how much of a treasure he is, and it upsets me greatly when people treat him badly. I just want to scream, "Don't you know what you've got here? Why do you treat him this way? He has done nothing to deserve this!"
And even more so, it makes me appreciate and love my husband even more. I know what I have, and I want to respect him even greater because he is such an amazing person.
So, Mike, I value you greatly! I love you so much, and I hope you realize how much you mean to me and Lily. Where would we be without you? Lost! You are amazing, and I thank you for being such a great Christ follower, husband, daddy, lover, engineer, and so many other things!
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