Sensitive Me

There is something that I need to get off my chest, and its huge! Most of my closest friends probably know this about me, but they probably don't understand it very well...

So, my huge confession is that I am a highly sensitive person. I am introverted, deep, and emotional! I worry a lot and often over-analyze everything. I keep to myself most of the time, and when I am out and about, I am overwhelmed by large crowds, chaos, and tons of noise. I won't act crazy...ever, and even as a child, I was never one to have gobs of energy! Oh, and probably the hardest thing for me, is that I am easily hurt. When I was younger, I would cry too much...it was awful!

I have hated this part of myself for most of my life, until recently. I have really started to appreciate the beauty of my sensitivity. I can feel a depth of emotion that most people probably can't fathom, and I can have a massive burden for things because God has placed something on my heart! For instance, right now, I have a burden for orphans and the hurting. I am not sure how to act on it, but it has been festering in my heart for a few years now!

It has been difficult growing up this way. It still is tough, because when I am hurt, I am not completely sure how to let it go. God is teaching me, slowly, to give over my hurts to Him. He is also teaching me the intense beauty that I possess (something that I have always struggled with is my sense of self-worth).

I want to teach the world about people like me...that way maybe we can be fully appreciated for who we are. Like a delicate flower, hidden in a garden, truly beautiful but often overlooked.

There will be more to come, as I can get my thoughts written out. So, stick with me, and maybe you will understand me a bit better!